I connect to so much of this! I am 41, and received an ADHD diagnosis a few weeks ago. I'm still reeling as I try to integrate this into my identity. So much of what I've struggled with makes sense now. In my case, my parents tried to get a diagnosis for me in the mid 1980s, but they couldn't, in part because diagnostic practices didn't recognize the symptoms in girls, but also because I am transgender and my symptoms did not resemble those of a typical "boy". As a result, I spent four decades just assuming that my struggles were the result of a personal failing that was beyond my control. For me, it took having my routines and coping mechanisms disrupted by the pandemic to reach a crisis point where I needed to seek a diagnosis. Since getting diagnosed, and diving into the research around ADHD I'm seeing patterns that have run through my life for as long as I can remember. It's been transformative to learn how brains like mine work! Best of luck to you in your own journey!